Believe

Whenever I hear the elders or my friends say the word Believe, it never sink into my comprehension what they mean.

Seven years ago, I dreamed of coming to America. Now, I am living in America. Thinking back to the first year I planned on leaving Guam, it seems unbelievable. Today, I believe in dream big and setting goals.

Winter Season in Herndon

I am now living my second year in America. My children and youngest brother are here with me and we’re all learning how to live like Americans.

Photo captured by Ms. Ann (friend in America)

Meeting New People In New Place

I have made it to six months on this new land I am now establishing myself in. United States of America, specifically Virginia State (City of Lovers), is still as new to me as my first day of stepping on its soil.

On Sterling Rd, Herndon, Virginia State

I am trying to settle now, and part of settling means getting a place, a car, and paying insurance. It’s also an adventure of sites seeing and working to get as many hours as I can get in United Airlines.

A Mall in Maryland

I know it’s still a strange land to me, but so far I have gotten the place, car and insurance down. Site seeing becomes exciting and I am even part of a Church now. This is how far I have come. Can’t wait to explore more.

The Dream Come True

Two years ago, I have been longing to travel the world. I was always on Guam and I felt stuck. I had an urge in me that wished to see mainland. I would post on my Facebook saying, “I wish to see the world out there.” Then summer 2022 my dream came true.

Fairfax Virginia

May 30th, 2022 I landed in Seattle and stayed for a month. Then I traveled to Texas and road tripped to Florida. Thanks to my amazing family for making all these trips possible. Above all, thank God for making my dream come true.

It’s great to see the dreams from years back come true.

Bought from Texas

My New Journey to US Mainland.

It starts out with a rush trip from my Papa. He want me to bring him out to Seattle. How can I refuse the reguest of the man who raised me. Still, I have my kids too. Although my kids are my first thoughts and all my loves, I am in debt to this man. He loved me and raised me from childhood. Now it’s my time to return the favor.

The New Horizon to my new path.

Papa adopted my mom and my aunty. He took them as his own and when I was born, he and Mama took me and raised me as their own too. So I love my kids dearly but he is old and can’t travel alone. It is just right that I be the one to take him out to the states.

Before leaving Guam, I had a conversation with my beloved children, “wait patiently for mama.”

At Guam Airport. PC: Dixie

I had to explain why I must leave without them and we made an agreement that I will bring them out to the states once I find a job.

America here I come!

The New Start

It’s one thing to have a partner in the family, and another thing to raise kids without daddy in the house.

Time has passed and years come. A once family tradition is changed and adapted to a new kind. I am now a lone parent raising my kids on my own.

Is it easy? Not really. Do I have peace though? Well, I am starting to learn the true definition of peace.

You see, peace comes after a person finally accept themselves for who they are. I was accustomed to deny myself and be who people expect me to be. That results into me loosing who I truly am.

I am not a shy person, but rather a very outgoing individual. I go out of my way in helping people in need and I never like to brag about it.

Meriva, Mommy, Mia, and Obayann(front)

When people ask for help, I make time for them even if it means sacrificing my personal time. Rather than gossiping, I mind my own business and stay out of judgmental groups.

These are new discoveries that I never had when a man was controlling my overall daily living. Thank God I am free from my past.

Summer Life

Sunrise Takachang Beach, Guam

Nothing is more pleasant than watching the sunrise on the beach.

The breeze is soft and the waves sing in Rhythms as they hit the reef.

The sky color changed from dark grey to stripes of orange and to white. Soon after, the sun rises slowly and I have a thought. God is Almighty.

Takachang Beach

Our Saturday

It’s all about spending time with family.

BaySon wants to play game and ObayAnn wants to play make-up.

Meriva here is too mature for her age, she allows me to meet the wants of her younger siblings.

The question is: Do I have the energy? As much as I do not like admitting it, I am trying to keep up with them. They have grown so much during this quarantines.

Their wants outnumbered their needs. Their demands out weight my budget.

Still, I am praying for strength and energy to keep up with my kids. After all, I am all they have.

A mother’s love is her energy drink.